Dreams and Waking

Morning Day 1

So this morning, while I was asleep I had crazy dreams. They were all about me eating the wrong foods and getting caught. The foods were usually sweets but sometimes it was meat or condiments which are both forbidden. Dreams are curious sometimes. Particularly in Bible times, dreams were used as tools for God to show messages to people to get his message across. Usually in those situations there was someone to interpret those dreams, like Joseph in Egypt or Daniel in Babylon. Now days, people tend to disregard their dreams unless they are weird (like mine usually are) or because they have forgotten them. I believe that all dreams are important even the weird ones. Dream are our conscience using information from our lives and rearranging it into a picture that has some meaning. My dreams last night are proof of this. Because of the Daniel fast that I have begun today, I am anxious about whether or not I can succeed. Of course I know I can because I have Hope from God (Thank you Jessie). However, I love meat! Really love meat and sweets and all the things on the forbidden list. I am confident that I can overcome but this is going to be challenging. The dreams remind me of when an recovering addict dreams that they relapsed; it was the same kind of thing. I was angry with myself for failing and disappointed for letting the people that are accountable for me down. Also I was sad that I had so little will power that I could not even last one day.

Thankfully these were just dreams. I am awake now and today is a new day. I have not cheated nor do I plan too. I am confident that this is going to be a good day and I am going to keep my goals and promises.

Today
I had to work today and before I did I read James out loud to myself. It was to help me remember that when times are rough to rely on God and He will take care of it. Eating today was good. I am confident that this week will go well. However, I am still apprehensive about the fast because of concerns with my stomach. Prayer for that would be wise.