Day 4?
Anyway, I know the title of this blog might seem weird but it has a point. Kyhla came to me in a dream a few nights ago and she has been popping up since then. She was looking for her true name and after going through rigorous tasks to find it, she is finally able to declare "I am Kyhla the Obvious". It took me by surprise. You see all the tasks that had to be performed had nothing to do with being obvious. I realize that I am obvious. I am easily seen, maybe not easy to understand for some people but for the most part easy to understand. I am also quick to see others and quick to understand most things. Dreams have a funny way of showing what we are and what we need. In this case, what I need should have been obvious to me, but of course I was blinded.
God is the one who brings us hope and joy and life. It is so obvious, we should be slapped in the face when we forget. He will never leave us or forsake us.
Today was positive attitude day. It was a success. Today was really good. I woke up before my alarm went off so I was able to relax in bed until then. Work also went swimmingly. I had a good attitude about it. I did make tuna again today but this time it was different. Today, I also go to quilting with my mom. Quilting is the one thing in the world that truly tries my patience. It isn't like some things where you can cut corners or wiz right through it. Quilting requires patience and an eye for details. I am not the best quilter for sure (you should see the blanket I am making. It is messed up, but it's mine and I can say I am finishing it by myself. I don't like quilting because it tries my patience but every week I go back there and do the same thing. I am determined to finish what I start.
Eating today was good. Breakfast was strawberries on toast. Lunch was cowboy caviar on jimmy johns bread and an apple and then dinner was cowboy caviar and an apple. Very simple. I have decided that I am going to continue the fast for the 21 days. However, I am going to just not eat meat. I will have a traditional vegetarian diet with cheese and condiments and normal foods.
Love Love Love
Kyhla the Obvious
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Monday, January 30, 2012
What am I doing?
Day 3
So it's Monday. I worked. Work was tough today. There is a young man at my work that dislikes me, I believe. At least he isn't very friendly. When I work with him I usually don't say much; I don't say much anyway but whatever. Today was a normal day. I prayed this morning that this day would go well and it has. I made tuna today and tried to concentrate on prayer, but I was distracted by the tuna. I suppose I just kept an open mind toward God. No I take it all back. Today was a fail. I had a headache all day and I was hungry and all I did was complain. I tried to keep a positive attitude but when you are in pain it's a lot harder to have a positive mind set.
My mom wants me to be empowered and to take initiative. She wants me to be brave. I am not brave. In other words, if this was the world of Hogwarts, I would NOT be sorted into Gryffandor. This life is not a fantasy or make believe, it's real. I need to have a positive attitude about everything.
Eating today was good. I had a good breakfast. I didn't have lunch because I was working but dinner was good too. Mom and I cook dinner together on Monday nights and we usually have something different and amazing and tonight I made Cowboy Caviar- avacado, corn, tomato, black beans, green and red onion, cilantro and a little bit of lime. It was awesome! I at it on toast like a sandwich. Yum.
Goal tomorrow- Positive attitude, mind on God
Love
Kaleidoscope Everlasting
So it's Monday. I worked. Work was tough today. There is a young man at my work that dislikes me, I believe. At least he isn't very friendly. When I work with him I usually don't say much; I don't say much anyway but whatever. Today was a normal day. I prayed this morning that this day would go well and it has. I made tuna today and tried to concentrate on prayer, but I was distracted by the tuna. I suppose I just kept an open mind toward God. No I take it all back. Today was a fail. I had a headache all day and I was hungry and all I did was complain. I tried to keep a positive attitude but when you are in pain it's a lot harder to have a positive mind set.
My mom wants me to be empowered and to take initiative. She wants me to be brave. I am not brave. In other words, if this was the world of Hogwarts, I would NOT be sorted into Gryffandor. This life is not a fantasy or make believe, it's real. I need to have a positive attitude about everything.
Eating today was good. I had a good breakfast. I didn't have lunch because I was working but dinner was good too. Mom and I cook dinner together on Monday nights and we usually have something different and amazing and tonight I made Cowboy Caviar- avacado, corn, tomato, black beans, green and red onion, cilantro and a little bit of lime. It was awesome! I at it on toast like a sandwich. Yum.
Goal tomorrow- Positive attitude, mind on God
Love
Kaleidoscope Everlasting
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Fast like Speedy
Day 2
Sunday is one of my days off. I usually partake in lazing around, watching TV, facebooking and/or pinning on Pinterest (what up?!). I also end up doing errands, dishes and other stuff that my mom requests. Since I have moved from East Lansing, I have not regularly gone to church on Sundays; therefore I have not been fed spiritually as well as I should be.
Today my parents and I tried a new church called New Life Christian Fellowship. I really liked it. The music was good and you could really feel God's presents moving through the community. There was a lady behind us that was speaking in tongues like it was her first language and you could really tell these people were excited and ready for their Lord to speak to them.
Ironically, the message today at church was about fast. In Mark 2, Jesus is questioned by the Pharisees why His disciples were not fasting though it was a day set aside by the teachers to fast. Jesus replied with the metaphor to a wedding where the feasting and partying lasts until the Bridegroom leaves. While the Bridegroom is there, no one fasts. They wait. Therefore in this sense Jesus is telling the Pharisees that He is God. In the original scripture, the word Bridegroom is one of the words used to symbolize God. So, what He was saying was that there will be a time to fast for his disciples but it would not be until he left. This was also the first indication in Mark that Jesus was going to die.
Also in the pastor's message he also talked about fasting as being close to God but also close to the tempter. You are never closer to these two opposites save when fasting.
Come Lord Jesus Come.
Eating today was fine. I went grocery shopping with my mother and was tempted by a number of foods. Meat cookies, coffee... all of which are forbidden until the end of the fast. However I am confident that I will overcome because I have the Lord on my side.
Love Love Love
Kalio
Sunday is one of my days off. I usually partake in lazing around, watching TV, facebooking and/or pinning on Pinterest (what up?!). I also end up doing errands, dishes and other stuff that my mom requests. Since I have moved from East Lansing, I have not regularly gone to church on Sundays; therefore I have not been fed spiritually as well as I should be.
Today my parents and I tried a new church called New Life Christian Fellowship. I really liked it. The music was good and you could really feel God's presents moving through the community. There was a lady behind us that was speaking in tongues like it was her first language and you could really tell these people were excited and ready for their Lord to speak to them.
Ironically, the message today at church was about fast. In Mark 2, Jesus is questioned by the Pharisees why His disciples were not fasting though it was a day set aside by the teachers to fast. Jesus replied with the metaphor to a wedding where the feasting and partying lasts until the Bridegroom leaves. While the Bridegroom is there, no one fasts. They wait. Therefore in this sense Jesus is telling the Pharisees that He is God. In the original scripture, the word Bridegroom is one of the words used to symbolize God. So, what He was saying was that there will be a time to fast for his disciples but it would not be until he left. This was also the first indication in Mark that Jesus was going to die.
Also in the pastor's message he also talked about fasting as being close to God but also close to the tempter. You are never closer to these two opposites save when fasting.
Come Lord Jesus Come.
Eating today was fine. I went grocery shopping with my mother and was tempted by a number of foods. Meat cookies, coffee... all of which are forbidden until the end of the fast. However I am confident that I will overcome because I have the Lord on my side.
Love Love Love
Kalio
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Dreams and Waking
Morning Day 1
So this morning, while I was asleep I had crazy dreams. They were all about me eating the wrong foods and getting caught. The foods were usually sweets but sometimes it was meat or condiments which are both forbidden. Dreams are curious sometimes. Particularly in Bible times, dreams were used as tools for God to show messages to people to get his message across. Usually in those situations there was someone to interpret those dreams, like Joseph in Egypt or Daniel in Babylon. Now days, people tend to disregard their dreams unless they are weird (like mine usually are) or because they have forgotten them. I believe that all dreams are important even the weird ones. Dream are our conscience using information from our lives and rearranging it into a picture that has some meaning. My dreams last night are proof of this. Because of the Daniel fast that I have begun today, I am anxious about whether or not I can succeed. Of course I know I can because I have Hope from God (Thank you Jessie). However, I love meat! Really love meat and sweets and all the things on the forbidden list. I am confident that I can overcome but this is going to be challenging. The dreams remind me of when an recovering addict dreams that they relapsed; it was the same kind of thing. I was angry with myself for failing and disappointed for letting the people that are accountable for me down. Also I was sad that I had so little will power that I could not even last one day.
Thankfully these were just dreams. I am awake now and today is a new day. I have not cheated nor do I plan too. I am confident that this is going to be a good day and I am going to keep my goals and promises.
Today
I had to work today and before I did I read James out loud to myself. It was to help me remember that when times are rough to rely on God and He will take care of it. Eating today was good. I am confident that this week will go well. However, I am still apprehensive about the fast because of concerns with my stomach. Prayer for that would be wise.
So this morning, while I was asleep I had crazy dreams. They were all about me eating the wrong foods and getting caught. The foods were usually sweets but sometimes it was meat or condiments which are both forbidden. Dreams are curious sometimes. Particularly in Bible times, dreams were used as tools for God to show messages to people to get his message across. Usually in those situations there was someone to interpret those dreams, like Joseph in Egypt or Daniel in Babylon. Now days, people tend to disregard their dreams unless they are weird (like mine usually are) or because they have forgotten them. I believe that all dreams are important even the weird ones. Dream are our conscience using information from our lives and rearranging it into a picture that has some meaning. My dreams last night are proof of this. Because of the Daniel fast that I have begun today, I am anxious about whether or not I can succeed. Of course I know I can because I have Hope from God (Thank you Jessie). However, I love meat! Really love meat and sweets and all the things on the forbidden list. I am confident that I can overcome but this is going to be challenging. The dreams remind me of when an recovering addict dreams that they relapsed; it was the same kind of thing. I was angry with myself for failing and disappointed for letting the people that are accountable for me down. Also I was sad that I had so little will power that I could not even last one day.
Thankfully these were just dreams. I am awake now and today is a new day. I have not cheated nor do I plan too. I am confident that this is going to be a good day and I am going to keep my goals and promises.
Today
I had to work today and before I did I read James out loud to myself. It was to help me remember that when times are rough to rely on God and He will take care of it. Eating today was good. I am confident that this week will go well. However, I am still apprehensive about the fast because of concerns with my stomach. Prayer for that would be wise.
Friday, January 27, 2012
My Challenge- Daniel's Fast
Daniel 1: 8 - 16
But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way. Now God had caused the official to show favor and sympathy to Daniel, but the official told Daniel, "I am afraid of my lord the king, who has assigned your food and drink. Why should he see you looking worse than the other young men your age? The king would then have my head because of you.
Daniel then said to the guard who the chief official had appointed over Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah, "Please test your servants for ten days: Give us nothing but vegetables to eat and water to drink. Then compare our appearance with that of the young men who eat the royal food, and treat your servants in accordance with what you see." So he agreed to this and tested them for ten days.
At the end of the ten days they looked healthier and better nourished than any of the the young men who ate the royal food. So the guard took away their choice food and the wine they were to drink and gave them vegetables instead.
Dear friends,
I am going to follow Daniel's fast for 10 days as part of a 21 days fast. I am going to a retreat this weekend and I am looking forward to prepare my heart for what God has to show me. My goals are to have a clearer mind to what God is telling me; to have a positive attitude, to understand Daniel and what he and the other captives went through in Babylon, to blog each day (apart from the retreat) about what God is showing me, and finally, to possibly continue the fast for the full 21 days. I am going to begin tomorrow Saturday January 28, 2012 and finish the 10 days on Monday, February 6, 2012 and if I continue on for all 21 days to finish on Friday February 17, 2012. While the fast is going on I am going to be reading Daniel a chapter a week with my friend, Nicole. Daniel has 12 chapters, therefore I will have 4 chapters finished for the 21 days.
Allowed Foods: Vegetables, Fruit, Water, Bread, and Beans
Forbidden Foods: Meat, Condiments, Butter, Spices, Pop/Juice, Sweets (etc.), and Potatoes
My friends Nicole and Jessica are going to help me be accountable for my fast.
Wish me Luck
Love
Kali
But Daniel resolved not to defile himself with the royal food and wine, and he asked the chief official for permission not to defile himself this way. Now God had caused the official to show favor and sympathy to Daniel, but the official told Daniel, "I am afraid of my lord the king, who has assigned your food and drink. Why should he see you looking worse than the other young men your age? The king would then have my head because of you.
Daniel then said to the guard who the chief official had appointed over Daniel, Hananiah, Mishael, and Azariah, "Please test your servants for ten days: Give us nothing but vegetables to eat and water to drink. Then compare our appearance with that of the young men who eat the royal food, and treat your servants in accordance with what you see." So he agreed to this and tested them for ten days.
At the end of the ten days they looked healthier and better nourished than any of the the young men who ate the royal food. So the guard took away their choice food and the wine they were to drink and gave them vegetables instead.
Dear friends,
I am going to follow Daniel's fast for 10 days as part of a 21 days fast. I am going to a retreat this weekend and I am looking forward to prepare my heart for what God has to show me. My goals are to have a clearer mind to what God is telling me; to have a positive attitude, to understand Daniel and what he and the other captives went through in Babylon, to blog each day (apart from the retreat) about what God is showing me, and finally, to possibly continue the fast for the full 21 days. I am going to begin tomorrow Saturday January 28, 2012 and finish the 10 days on Monday, February 6, 2012 and if I continue on for all 21 days to finish on Friday February 17, 2012. While the fast is going on I am going to be reading Daniel a chapter a week with my friend, Nicole. Daniel has 12 chapters, therefore I will have 4 chapters finished for the 21 days.
Allowed Foods: Vegetables, Fruit, Water, Bread, and Beans
Forbidden Foods: Meat, Condiments, Butter, Spices, Pop/Juice, Sweets (etc.), and Potatoes
My friends Nicole and Jessica are going to help me be accountable for my fast.
Wish me Luck
Love
Kali
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Shut Down and Lonely
I like attention. That is my biggest flaw. I want everything to be about me. I am selfish. I just wish that I could shut down that part of me. I know it's not healthy. The only problem is that I crave it just more than I want to shut it down. I want to be the best. I want everyone to see how great I am. Yuck. I can't believe I just typed that sentence. I fear that the root of all the greed is jealousy. To me, it seems like everyone in my position is sowing their seeds of their adult life. I am at a crossroads. It is one of the worst places to be in. I want something to happen but it all depends on me....
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