Caught Somewhere in Between

I want to be Peter Pan and the Lost Boys.
Only I don't live in Neverland.
And unlike those boys found in fairy tales, I have to grow up.
But I don't want to.

Sadly, for the most part, I have grown up. Well, according to the law anyway. Inside, I am still that kid at heart. I get excited over Disney stuff, and watching kids shows. I even like hanging out with 10 year olds at church on Wednesday nights. On the other hand, I have to grow up. I have to find a career and pay my bills. I have to move out of my parent's house. But, I still think of myself as a kid. Back in the old days, a girl of my age would probably be married and have at least 2 kids. Those girls had no choice but to grow up. I have so many options because I am not tied down like that. Yet, I feel pressured to get tied down with a job. I want to be free to do what I want and to have fun. I want to travel and see the world. To do that, you need $$$$- something I don't have because I don't have a job that pays me enough to cover my bills.

 I want to be a kid. I don't want the responsibility. But you know what would be fun? Having someone to share the fun with. Being at home I feel all alone. Having someone who understands where I am coming from to hang out with all day and to doing random stuff and get enjoyment out of life together. That would be fun. I miss my friends the most. Being surrounded by love and living in a place where people actually flock to... nothing is better than that. Someday I will find the perfect community to live and grow in and the perfect person to share it with. Until then, "I'm just sitting on the dock of the bay, watching the tide roll away"

<3 <3 <3 Forever
Wendy Mora Angela Darling- The girl that grew up
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