I want to be Peter Pan and the Lost Boys.
Only I don't live in Neverland.
And unlike those boys found in fairy tales, I have to grow up.
But I don't want to.
Sadly, for the most part, I have grown up. Well, according to the law anyway. Inside, I am still that kid at heart. I get excited over Disney stuff, and watching kids shows. I even like hanging out with 10 year olds at church on Wednesday nights. On the other hand, I have to grow up. I have to find a career and pay my bills. I have to move out of my parent's house. But, I still think of myself as a kid. Back in the old days, a girl of my age would probably be married and have at least 2 kids. Those girls had no choice but to grow up. I have so many options because I am not tied down like that. Yet, I feel pressured to get tied down with a job. I want to be free to do what I want and to have fun. I want to travel and see the world. To do that, you need $$$$- something I don't have because I don't have a job that pays me enough to cover my bills.
I want to be a kid. I don't want the responsibility. But you know what would be fun? Having someone to share the fun with. Being at home I feel all alone. Having someone who understands where I am coming from to hang out with all day and to doing random stuff and get enjoyment out of life together. That would be fun. I miss my friends the most. Being surrounded by love and living in a place where people actually flock to... nothing is better than that. Someday I will find the perfect community to live and grow in and the perfect person to share it with. Until then, "I'm just sitting on the dock of the bay, watching the tide roll away"
<3 <3 <3 Forever
Wendy Mora Angela Darling- The girl that grew up
(Kaleidoscope)
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
Speaking With No Voice
Oooie Gooie was a worm. A gooy worm was he. He climbed up on the railroad tracks; the train he did not see.
OOOIE GOOIE!!!!
All this week my voice has been gone. I have been sick. I have a sore throat and a cold. Also on Wednesday I had an achy body. Just so you know. However, it gives a spectacular insight into God's mystery. When I read the Bible, I always give each person a voice in my head. It just makes things easier and keeps the people from meshing together. God is strange in that His voice changes depending on the circumstance. For example when God said "Let there be light'" I always hear Him say it like strongly but not like "hallelujah" strong. It has a James Earl Jones sound to it. When God is speaking to Abraham about the stars and his descendants the voice is softer and lyrical, but not actually singing... more like... poetry. When God speaks to Moses out of the burning bush, it's more mysterious and intriguing almost coaxing. However, Jesus is different. He speaks to everyone like a parent. He loves them like they are His children- amused, angry (only when necessary), patient, disappointed, and most importantly loving etc.
Today God speaks to us in different ways. He usually doesn't come right out and speak with us like He did in the Bible, at least not always. But wouldn't be freaking awesome (what?!). He's more subtle. When I was 16 or 17, I was at church camp and we were having worship and prayer and God was moving. As I was praying, the idea popped into my head from no where (seemingly) I was not thinking of anything of the sort at the time, but God told me that I was going to help people. Now as a 16 year old, there isn't much I can do with that and helping people is so very vague. At that time, I was planning on going into teaching. I really thought that was where God was going to place me. Needless to say, that didn't happen. I still have a passion for kids and for helping those in need, I just don't know when I am going to plant some roots.
Speaking with no voice is a reminder that God's voice is everywhere. All around you and me and He is constantly reminding us and telling us what is good and right and pure and worthy. We just have to take time and listen. This fast was for me to take the time to find God's voice. I found it (it was never really lost). I just had to take the time to listen for it. It told me a lot of true and meaningful things about my life, like things I need to focus on and things I need to quit. God is the ultimate teacher. He can show us things beyond our wildest dreams. All we have to do is listen and understand what He is saying (understanding is probably the harder part). We just have to have faith that God is going to do what He promises to us. He is telling us all the time- "I will never leave or forsake you" and He loved that world sooooo much that He gave His son to die for us. Did you understand that? He loves us. He loves you and me and that weird neighbor that borrows your newspaper a little too often. He loves us so much that He gave His [SON]. Humans, think about that. Could you as a parent (if you are one or ever see yourself as one) sacrifice you child to save the world? Our world- where murderers, rapists, embezzlers, liars, thieves, drunks, cheaters, and whatever other sick things we do here live. Would you give your child for that? No person in their right mind would. But God did. He did. He gave His son, so that we could live forever with Him. That is a lot of love. He gave it for you.That is the loudest action of love ever. Speaking with no words. Just Love. God is Love.
Wisdom is supreme, therefore get wisdom. If it costs all you have gain understanding. Proverbs 4:7
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only song that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16
OOOIE GOOIE!!!!
All this week my voice has been gone. I have been sick. I have a sore throat and a cold. Also on Wednesday I had an achy body. Just so you know. However, it gives a spectacular insight into God's mystery. When I read the Bible, I always give each person a voice in my head. It just makes things easier and keeps the people from meshing together. God is strange in that His voice changes depending on the circumstance. For example when God said "Let there be light'" I always hear Him say it like strongly but not like "hallelujah" strong. It has a James Earl Jones sound to it. When God is speaking to Abraham about the stars and his descendants the voice is softer and lyrical, but not actually singing... more like... poetry. When God speaks to Moses out of the burning bush, it's more mysterious and intriguing almost coaxing. However, Jesus is different. He speaks to everyone like a parent. He loves them like they are His children- amused, angry (only when necessary), patient, disappointed, and most importantly loving etc.
Today God speaks to us in different ways. He usually doesn't come right out and speak with us like He did in the Bible, at least not always. But wouldn't be freaking awesome (what?!). He's more subtle. When I was 16 or 17, I was at church camp and we were having worship and prayer and God was moving. As I was praying, the idea popped into my head from no where (seemingly) I was not thinking of anything of the sort at the time, but God told me that I was going to help people. Now as a 16 year old, there isn't much I can do with that and helping people is so very vague. At that time, I was planning on going into teaching. I really thought that was where God was going to place me. Needless to say, that didn't happen. I still have a passion for kids and for helping those in need, I just don't know when I am going to plant some roots.
Speaking with no voice is a reminder that God's voice is everywhere. All around you and me and He is constantly reminding us and telling us what is good and right and pure and worthy. We just have to take time and listen. This fast was for me to take the time to find God's voice. I found it (it was never really lost). I just had to take the time to listen for it. It told me a lot of true and meaningful things about my life, like things I need to focus on and things I need to quit. God is the ultimate teacher. He can show us things beyond our wildest dreams. All we have to do is listen and understand what He is saying (understanding is probably the harder part). We just have to have faith that God is going to do what He promises to us. He is telling us all the time- "I will never leave or forsake you" and He loved that world sooooo much that He gave His son to die for us. Did you understand that? He loves us. He loves you and me and that weird neighbor that borrows your newspaper a little too often. He loves us so much that He gave His [SON]. Humans, think about that. Could you as a parent (if you are one or ever see yourself as one) sacrifice you child to save the world? Our world- where murderers, rapists, embezzlers, liars, thieves, drunks, cheaters, and whatever other sick things we do here live. Would you give your child for that? No person in their right mind would. But God did. He did. He gave His son, so that we could live forever with Him. That is a lot of love. He gave it for you.That is the loudest action of love ever. Speaking with no words. Just Love. God is Love.
Wisdom is supreme, therefore get wisdom. If it costs all you have gain understanding. Proverbs 4:7
For God so loved the world that He gave His one and only song that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. John 3:16
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Kaleidoscope
noun
1. an optical instrument in which bits of glass, held loosely at the end of a rotating tube, are shown in continually changing symmetrical forms by reflection in two or more mirrors set at angles to each other.
3. a continually shifting pattern, scene, or the like: The 1920s were a kaleidoscope of fads and fashions.
From Dictionary.com
I like definition number 2. If you replace the title with the definition, it would be "My Life as [a continually changing patter of shapes and colors]. Whoa. Def makes my life more interesting. I bet your are toast jelly!! But in actuality, it's more like definition number 3.
I have been told I see things in a different way than some people. I have always grown up associating and affiliating with things that related to me. Hence kaleidoscopes and LaDainian Tomlinson is secretly my cousin. I associate colors to words and books. I have a fabulous memory (no really, not joking or tooting my own horn. It's true. Well maybe fabulous is taking it too far. What about really good? That works better) Correction: a really good memory. So I can take things and combine them all together to make something completely new in my mind. I have always secretly wondered if I am attention deficit at all. It would explain a lot, especially the yarn and why I never liked school. I like shiny things, and brightly colored stuff. I am a fly attracted to the lights. I can wander through life and make the mist random references to things. Sometimes people get them but most of the time people think I am out in left field and just got hit in the head by a fly ball. Outrageous. <3 Nicole- I love being cryptic!!!
Wandering in the wake of the world. Wondering which way I should go. When will the bird sing and when will the wind blow. I wonder what life I would have if you had stayed. Would it be the same?
Forever Yours
Lady Kaleidoscope
Monday, February 6, 2012
Magic of Music
Day 10
I love music. It is something that I have always loved. Usually I'm inclined to more upbeat music- rock, pop, alternative, but I also enjoy instrumental music, especially soundtracks and classical stuff. I find that music really influences how I feel. I use it to reflect my mood. It is beautiful. This weekend God used His beautiful music and lyrics to move me. I like the upbeat music more because I worship through dance and art, but the slower worship songs have a quality to them that you cannot find anywhere else. Music is where I really am convicted of my transgressions and where I find my mind wondering. So worship is also a struggle for me to reach God. However, God always brings me back to Him through music! I loved to sing and raise my voice. Often I find myself singing at the top of my lungs. I am not a great singer but I know that God hears me. It reminds me of Sister Mary Patrick in Sister Act 1. She has such a strong voice, but has to tone it back. "Sister Mary Clarence" tells her that everyone wants to be close to God but sometimes we have to come out of the rafters to make everything work together.Over the weekend I found that I lost my voice a little, at least it was a little raspy. It's great to raise your voice though! God is good!
Tomorrow I am done with strictness!! I am eating everything except meat! I am super excited! God has definitely taught me discipline this week of fasting! I think that I am going to do it again, but differently.
Proverbs 3:5,6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all you ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.
Isaiah 40:30, 31
Even youths grow tired and weary, young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint.
Luke 10:19
I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy. Nothing will harm you.
Love Forever
Lady Kaleidoscope
I love music. It is something that I have always loved. Usually I'm inclined to more upbeat music- rock, pop, alternative, but I also enjoy instrumental music, especially soundtracks and classical stuff. I find that music really influences how I feel. I use it to reflect my mood. It is beautiful. This weekend God used His beautiful music and lyrics to move me. I like the upbeat music more because I worship through dance and art, but the slower worship songs have a quality to them that you cannot find anywhere else. Music is where I really am convicted of my transgressions and where I find my mind wondering. So worship is also a struggle for me to reach God. However, God always brings me back to Him through music! I loved to sing and raise my voice. Often I find myself singing at the top of my lungs. I am not a great singer but I know that God hears me. It reminds me of Sister Mary Patrick in Sister Act 1. She has such a strong voice, but has to tone it back. "Sister Mary Clarence" tells her that everyone wants to be close to God but sometimes we have to come out of the rafters to make everything work together.Over the weekend I found that I lost my voice a little, at least it was a little raspy. It's great to raise your voice though! God is good!
Tomorrow I am done with strictness!! I am eating everything except meat! I am super excited! God has definitely taught me discipline this week of fasting! I think that I am going to do it again, but differently.
Proverbs 3:5,6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all you ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.
Isaiah 40:30, 31
Even youths grow tired and weary, young men stumble and fall, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not grow faint.
Luke 10:19
I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy. Nothing will harm you.
Love Forever
Lady Kaleidoscope
Sunday, February 5, 2012
A Different Point of View- Hope Everlasting
Day (8) 9
Since I was unable to post yesterday, I am going to fill in the gaps from this weekend. Friday evening we drove up to Cedar Campus in Cedarville, MI. Cedarville is east of the bridge near Drummand Island. It is gorgeous up there. Whenever I go north, I always look for the northern lights. I have always wanted to see them, but I still haven't. My friends Kate, Joslynn, and Felicia were all in the car with me. We talked and sang along to music. We ate at Jimmy Johns, tired to guess who was singing the songs on the radio, admiring the beauty of the bridge and enjoyed the trip. The retreat was entitled Hope Again. When we arrived, the main session had just ended. I was disappointed to have missed it but I did not have much control over time. We had a snack and met with our small groups and we discussed Hebrews 6:19, which talks about God being our anchor. I made a fascinating connection about how sometimes anchors have to connect with rocks in order to stay in place.We also talked about James 1:2, which is one of my "life verses". Once finished we were able to go to the cabin and get ready for bed. Let me tell you, I slept like a rock.
In the morning when I awoke, I was well rested and ready for the day. First thing I did upon leaving the cabin for breakfast- try and dance on ice- not smart. Needless to say I fell right on my butt. I think I might have a bruise forming or something because it still hurts. Eating was hard this weekend. Of course, the food they set out wasn't part of my fast. I mostly survived this weekend on fruit and bread. Not very good. I need some protein in order for my body to properly work. If I was to give blood, I bet I wouldn't have enough iron in my system either.
The morning main session was about finding hope in God's word. One quotation that really struck me was "when you read the word, it's like God is breathing into you". This means that God is giving you breath, saving you life, CPR really, because without Him was are suffocating and drowning. We also talked about Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. The speaker made us speak this verse with inflections on all the words. It was really quite powerful. We also discussed Psalms 46:10- Be still and know I am God. The point of this verse is to remind the reader to exist is a state of stillness: physically (to mediate and reflect on His word), emotionally (to remain calm and composed in all trails), spiritually (God has everything handled) and intellectually (it is wise to seek Him). To learn this you have to have constant reminders because what sticks in your mind changes you.
We were required to attend 2 workshops about everything; from choices to singleness to Proverbs 31 to freedom and confidence in God. I attended the one on singleness and one called Beauty from Ashes. The singleness one spoke of how a young woman should not be in love with the idea of marriage. She should pursue God and be 100% confident in God's love and trust Him fully that He is going to make the right decisions for her life. There are worse things that being single, like being married to the wrong person etc. Psalms 37:45 says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." The next workshop I attended, Beauty from Ashes, was taught by a young woman who had made mistakes in her past. She was not confident in God's love and forgiveness in her and she was ashamed of her mistakes. She spoke of how her journey with God and her family had come to humble her and let her know that God is watching out for her and taking care of her even when she was not the most confident in herself. The young woman when on to speak of what sin was holding us back and keeping us from running with God. She gave us a lot of really good scripture to back her points and to help us turn to God and run with Him.
After the workshops we had some free time. My friend Felicia and I went geocacheing. Geocacheing is when someone hides a notebook or something for people to find and write their names in it to tell others they have been there. It's like treasure hunting. Felicia and I walked through the woods of Cedar Campus. We found some team building exercises and a tree house before we realized we were going the wrong way, but it was so beautiful with Lake Huron and the waves crashing and hopping from rock to rock and enjoying to icy air and beautiful sounds of God's country. The geocache was deep in the wood and we had to climb over trees and through spider webs in order to find it. We did end up finding it. We signed our names and left gifts for others to find in the future. On the way back, we stopped at gnome rock and took some pictures. Felicia and I always have fun together. Since I have left East Lansing, the time that we spend together has become ever more precious because of her growing relationship with an awesome man of God. I love Felicia so much. She is easy to talk to and she understands my randomness and loves me for it. Spending time with her is very easy. We had a good conversation about stuff that is going on and of the future. We walked about 3 miles in order to find the geocache. When we returned to camp, I was tired so I napped.
I slept through most of dinner, but still managed to eat something. The main session in the beginning was a prayer concert. I just felt peace. God was giving me messages to just stay still and be consumed by Him. I had my skin prayed over and it was incredible. It felt really hot all the time Nicole was praying for it and I was shaking so much that tears weld up in my eyes. It was amazing. Normally I worship through dance and art, but that night I stayed put and trusted that God would speak to me where I was. I listened to the music playing and just let God merge into my whole system and calm me and let me be free. The message was about not letting lies fool us into giving up what we have in God. We need to put on our full armour and protect ourselves from those lies.
After the main session was a small group which was really good. I made some awesome connections that made it easy for me to understand and relate to. Pile of yarn. Then was a sleepless party. There was dancing, messages, nail stuff, lipgloss stuff, chocolate fountains etc. Naturally I participated in the dancing. I love singing and dancing and letting the music move me. They were playing ok stuff because of the limitations of cleanliness, but in the end I managed to get some of my music to play and it was good. Jessie, Carrie, Kate, Greta and I all danced and had a blast. Then I went to sleep, I was tired from the full day.
This morning was packing up and breakfast, followed by the last session. The last main session was about sharing out hope with the world- telling our story of faith. The speaker also gave us good advice about how we can live our lives better for Christ. Live by God's rules and not by what the world says. If you live with God, you will have joy.
The trip home was uneventful. I slept a little because it was bright and I was tired. I stayed long enough in East Lansing to see the National Anthem sung by Kelly Clarkson at the super bowl, then I drove home. I relaxed by taking a bath and eating some tastier food than I have had all weekend. I am excited for what this week brings me and I am excited for this fast to end so I can eat normal foods. I am completely glad at what God has been showing me while I am still on the main fast. I am excited to continue with a more normal eating in order to get some more protein in my diet.
God moved through me this weekend. The retreat has given me much to think about and much responsibility to keep growing and keep reading and keep maturing in faith. I have to have confidence that God loves and takes care of me and carries me through life. The Lord is with me always.
Love Forever
Child of the Most High
Since I was unable to post yesterday, I am going to fill in the gaps from this weekend. Friday evening we drove up to Cedar Campus in Cedarville, MI. Cedarville is east of the bridge near Drummand Island. It is gorgeous up there. Whenever I go north, I always look for the northern lights. I have always wanted to see them, but I still haven't. My friends Kate, Joslynn, and Felicia were all in the car with me. We talked and sang along to music. We ate at Jimmy Johns, tired to guess who was singing the songs on the radio, admiring the beauty of the bridge and enjoyed the trip. The retreat was entitled Hope Again. When we arrived, the main session had just ended. I was disappointed to have missed it but I did not have much control over time. We had a snack and met with our small groups and we discussed Hebrews 6:19, which talks about God being our anchor. I made a fascinating connection about how sometimes anchors have to connect with rocks in order to stay in place.We also talked about James 1:2, which is one of my "life verses". Once finished we were able to go to the cabin and get ready for bed. Let me tell you, I slept like a rock.
In the morning when I awoke, I was well rested and ready for the day. First thing I did upon leaving the cabin for breakfast- try and dance on ice- not smart. Needless to say I fell right on my butt. I think I might have a bruise forming or something because it still hurts. Eating was hard this weekend. Of course, the food they set out wasn't part of my fast. I mostly survived this weekend on fruit and bread. Not very good. I need some protein in order for my body to properly work. If I was to give blood, I bet I wouldn't have enough iron in my system either.
The morning main session was about finding hope in God's word. One quotation that really struck me was "when you read the word, it's like God is breathing into you". This means that God is giving you breath, saving you life, CPR really, because without Him was are suffocating and drowning. We also talked about Philippians 4:13- I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. The speaker made us speak this verse with inflections on all the words. It was really quite powerful. We also discussed Psalms 46:10- Be still and know I am God. The point of this verse is to remind the reader to exist is a state of stillness: physically (to mediate and reflect on His word), emotionally (to remain calm and composed in all trails), spiritually (God has everything handled) and intellectually (it is wise to seek Him). To learn this you have to have constant reminders because what sticks in your mind changes you.
We were required to attend 2 workshops about everything; from choices to singleness to Proverbs 31 to freedom and confidence in God. I attended the one on singleness and one called Beauty from Ashes. The singleness one spoke of how a young woman should not be in love with the idea of marriage. She should pursue God and be 100% confident in God's love and trust Him fully that He is going to make the right decisions for her life. There are worse things that being single, like being married to the wrong person etc. Psalms 37:45 says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." The next workshop I attended, Beauty from Ashes, was taught by a young woman who had made mistakes in her past. She was not confident in God's love and forgiveness in her and she was ashamed of her mistakes. She spoke of how her journey with God and her family had come to humble her and let her know that God is watching out for her and taking care of her even when she was not the most confident in herself. The young woman when on to speak of what sin was holding us back and keeping us from running with God. She gave us a lot of really good scripture to back her points and to help us turn to God and run with Him.
After the workshops we had some free time. My friend Felicia and I went geocacheing. Geocacheing is when someone hides a notebook or something for people to find and write their names in it to tell others they have been there. It's like treasure hunting. Felicia and I walked through the woods of Cedar Campus. We found some team building exercises and a tree house before we realized we were going the wrong way, but it was so beautiful with Lake Huron and the waves crashing and hopping from rock to rock and enjoying to icy air and beautiful sounds of God's country. The geocache was deep in the wood and we had to climb over trees and through spider webs in order to find it. We did end up finding it. We signed our names and left gifts for others to find in the future. On the way back, we stopped at gnome rock and took some pictures. Felicia and I always have fun together. Since I have left East Lansing, the time that we spend together has become ever more precious because of her growing relationship with an awesome man of God. I love Felicia so much. She is easy to talk to and she understands my randomness and loves me for it. Spending time with her is very easy. We had a good conversation about stuff that is going on and of the future. We walked about 3 miles in order to find the geocache. When we returned to camp, I was tired so I napped.
I slept through most of dinner, but still managed to eat something. The main session in the beginning was a prayer concert. I just felt peace. God was giving me messages to just stay still and be consumed by Him. I had my skin prayed over and it was incredible. It felt really hot all the time Nicole was praying for it and I was shaking so much that tears weld up in my eyes. It was amazing. Normally I worship through dance and art, but that night I stayed put and trusted that God would speak to me where I was. I listened to the music playing and just let God merge into my whole system and calm me and let me be free. The message was about not letting lies fool us into giving up what we have in God. We need to put on our full armour and protect ourselves from those lies.
After the main session was a small group which was really good. I made some awesome connections that made it easy for me to understand and relate to. Pile of yarn. Then was a sleepless party. There was dancing, messages, nail stuff, lipgloss stuff, chocolate fountains etc. Naturally I participated in the dancing. I love singing and dancing and letting the music move me. They were playing ok stuff because of the limitations of cleanliness, but in the end I managed to get some of my music to play and it was good. Jessie, Carrie, Kate, Greta and I all danced and had a blast. Then I went to sleep, I was tired from the full day.
This morning was packing up and breakfast, followed by the last session. The last main session was about sharing out hope with the world- telling our story of faith. The speaker also gave us good advice about how we can live our lives better for Christ. Live by God's rules and not by what the world says. If you live with God, you will have joy.
The trip home was uneventful. I slept a little because it was bright and I was tired. I stayed long enough in East Lansing to see the National Anthem sung by Kelly Clarkson at the super bowl, then I drove home. I relaxed by taking a bath and eating some tastier food than I have had all weekend. I am excited for what this week brings me and I am excited for this fast to end so I can eat normal foods. I am completely glad at what God has been showing me while I am still on the main fast. I am excited to continue with a more normal eating in order to get some more protein in my diet.
God moved through me this weekend. The retreat has given me much to think about and much responsibility to keep growing and keep reading and keep maturing in faith. I have to have confidence that God loves and takes care of me and carries me through life. The Lord is with me always.
Love Forever
Child of the Most High
Friday, February 3, 2012
You Did That On Purpose
Day 7
Today I am going up north for the retreat. I will not be blogging tomorrow because I will be gone but I will keep thorough notes and update you on what when down up there (lol). Right now I am waiting to leave so I thought I would write down what I expect from this retreat. I expect a renewed closeness with God; a ton of fun, lots of love, bad food (I probs won't be eating much because of my fast), and more God. I am really excited for what this weekend brings.
Yesterday, the title for my blog was wonderbread and lava lanps. I feel that blogs should have interesting titles like that even if they don't have anything to do with what I type about. Most times they end up being something about the blog because I have an idea of what I am going to type about, but yesterday I really didn't know what I was going to say until I started typing. Today's title is about my friend Carrie calling me just before I started this blog. She has Justin Beiber's "Baby" as her ringtone when she calls, and if anyone knows me well they know I am not a Belieber. So sometimes she just calls me to make me listen to the ringtone and I love her for it. Despite my distaste, it always makes me happy when she calls. Doing something with purpose is always a smart plan. Whether you are going to an interview or just doing your to do list. It is important to be purposeful in what you do. It is the best and easiest way to bring followers to Christ because that is you purpose and you have set your mind to it.
Eating today has been good. This morning for breakfast, the others had french toast and of course since I cannot have eggs syrup or cinnamon I could not have any of it. I instead had orange slices and banana slices and 2 pieces of regular toast. I had more energy that the people who had eaten the french toast. It was a good feeling! I am super excited for this fast to be over because I want normal food. I am really excited for God to show me what He has prepared for me this weekend. I hope that I can be purposeful in my actions and words.
LoVE Love Love
The Non-Belieber (:
Today I am going up north for the retreat. I will not be blogging tomorrow because I will be gone but I will keep thorough notes and update you on what when down up there (lol). Right now I am waiting to leave so I thought I would write down what I expect from this retreat. I expect a renewed closeness with God; a ton of fun, lots of love, bad food (I probs won't be eating much because of my fast), and more God. I am really excited for what this weekend brings.
Yesterday, the title for my blog was wonderbread and lava lanps. I feel that blogs should have interesting titles like that even if they don't have anything to do with what I type about. Most times they end up being something about the blog because I have an idea of what I am going to type about, but yesterday I really didn't know what I was going to say until I started typing. Today's title is about my friend Carrie calling me just before I started this blog. She has Justin Beiber's "Baby" as her ringtone when she calls, and if anyone knows me well they know I am not a Belieber. So sometimes she just calls me to make me listen to the ringtone and I love her for it. Despite my distaste, it always makes me happy when she calls. Doing something with purpose is always a smart plan. Whether you are going to an interview or just doing your to do list. It is important to be purposeful in what you do. It is the best and easiest way to bring followers to Christ because that is you purpose and you have set your mind to it.
Eating today has been good. This morning for breakfast, the others had french toast and of course since I cannot have eggs syrup or cinnamon I could not have any of it. I instead had orange slices and banana slices and 2 pieces of regular toast. I had more energy that the people who had eaten the french toast. It was a good feeling! I am super excited for this fast to be over because I want normal food. I am really excited for God to show me what He has prepared for me this weekend. I hope that I can be purposeful in my actions and words.
LoVE Love Love
The Non-Belieber (:
Thursday, February 2, 2012
WonderBread and Lava Lamps
Day 6
Woot! More than half way done with Daniel fast. I am excited to be able to eat other foods again. It is hard to keep a mostly vegan diet. Today was a busy day at work. I mean crazy busy. Lots of deliveries and sandwiches and we ran out of bread even. I made tuna again. One thing about work, is that it keeps my focus. I find that when I am working I don't really think about other things and to think of others things is hard. I am currently in East Lansing! (what?!?!) This weekend I am going to a retreat with my His House people in the UP. I am really excited for God to move this weekend. I am excited to hang out with everyone and have a ton of fun!
Eating today was ok. I had subway this afternoon and now I don't feel well. Maybe the last couple times I have been to subway it has made me sick. hmmm. Ill have to check that out. I am nervous about eating this weekend because I don't know what foods are going to be available to me.
Love love love
Lava Lamp
Woot! More than half way done with Daniel fast. I am excited to be able to eat other foods again. It is hard to keep a mostly vegan diet. Today was a busy day at work. I mean crazy busy. Lots of deliveries and sandwiches and we ran out of bread even. I made tuna again. One thing about work, is that it keeps my focus. I find that when I am working I don't really think about other things and to think of others things is hard. I am currently in East Lansing! (what?!?!) This weekend I am going to a retreat with my His House people in the UP. I am really excited for God to move this weekend. I am excited to hang out with everyone and have a ton of fun!
Eating today was ok. I had subway this afternoon and now I don't feel well. Maybe the last couple times I have been to subway it has made me sick. hmmm. Ill have to check that out. I am nervous about eating this weekend because I don't know what foods are going to be available to me.
Love love love
Lava Lamp
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
I Love What I Do
Day 5
Today is Wednesday. I have always loved Wednesdays! When I was younger, it meant running around a church basement to see which team would win the night and have the most points. As I got older, it meant going to church for Missionettes, which is a Christian scouting program for girls. We earned badges, had sleepovers, went swimming, hung out with best friends, and basically had a blast. In more recent years, Wednesdays meant His House. An hour and half of worship and lesson, then dinner, and hanging out with the some of the most awesome people ever. Now that I am done with college, Wednesdays have reverted back to Missionettes. I am no longer a student. I am a leader. I help out the main teacher and make sure the kids are paying attention. I help them learn their lessons and memory verses. For the past 4 weeks we have been working on healing. Tonight, I realized how much impact my presence has on some of these girls. Sure I have know it before, but it's different when that is all you are doing there. Back in middle and high school, I was also learning my own lessons. I did help out, but it seemed like I had more priorities towards myself than the girls I was helping. Now I truly see what I bring to the table. I love it. I love that the girls want to be around us and listen to us. I love that they love us. It is the most rewarding and fun job to do. I love it soo much!
I work with 4th graders and they are awesome, sometimes a little squirrelly but awesome. My girls are Myranda, Ciera, Sienna, Deanna, Dyana, Anna, Emma, Lily, Lou, Mackenzie, Kionna, and Suzy. Of course, I share these girls with my leader Ms. B, who was one of my original teachers when I fist started, and the other helper, Skylar, who I helped "mentor" or lead when I was in high school.
Eating today was awesome! I had the best veggie sandwich today! It was tasty! I also made more cowboy caviar but I put jalapenos in it and it's too spicy for me because I can't drink milk with it, nor do I have anything to eat it with besides veggies which don't have a great barrier for spice. I also accidentally got some in my eye and boy that hurt soooo bad!!!
I am looking forward to the retreat this weekend. I will be with my His House friends and in the UP all weekend! Sweet!
James 5:14, 15
Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up.
Love Love Love
Kalio
Today is Wednesday. I have always loved Wednesdays! When I was younger, it meant running around a church basement to see which team would win the night and have the most points. As I got older, it meant going to church for Missionettes, which is a Christian scouting program for girls. We earned badges, had sleepovers, went swimming, hung out with best friends, and basically had a blast. In more recent years, Wednesdays meant His House. An hour and half of worship and lesson, then dinner, and hanging out with the some of the most awesome people ever. Now that I am done with college, Wednesdays have reverted back to Missionettes. I am no longer a student. I am a leader. I help out the main teacher and make sure the kids are paying attention. I help them learn their lessons and memory verses. For the past 4 weeks we have been working on healing. Tonight, I realized how much impact my presence has on some of these girls. Sure I have know it before, but it's different when that is all you are doing there. Back in middle and high school, I was also learning my own lessons. I did help out, but it seemed like I had more priorities towards myself than the girls I was helping. Now I truly see what I bring to the table. I love it. I love that the girls want to be around us and listen to us. I love that they love us. It is the most rewarding and fun job to do. I love it soo much!
I work with 4th graders and they are awesome, sometimes a little squirrelly but awesome. My girls are Myranda, Ciera, Sienna, Deanna, Dyana, Anna, Emma, Lily, Lou, Mackenzie, Kionna, and Suzy. Of course, I share these girls with my leader Ms. B, who was one of my original teachers when I fist started, and the other helper, Skylar, who I helped "mentor" or lead when I was in high school.
Eating today was awesome! I had the best veggie sandwich today! It was tasty! I also made more cowboy caviar but I put jalapenos in it and it's too spicy for me because I can't drink milk with it, nor do I have anything to eat it with besides veggies which don't have a great barrier for spice. I also accidentally got some in my eye and boy that hurt soooo bad!!!
I am looking forward to the retreat this weekend. I will be with my His House friends and in the UP all weekend! Sweet!
James 5:14, 15
Is any one of you sick? He should call the elders of the church to pray over him and anoint him with oil in the name of the Lord. And the prayer offered in faith will make the sick person well; the Lord will raise him up.
Love Love Love
Kalio
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